curiousness

so, i've been wondering lately, who all reads this thing? you should leave a comment on this post when you read it...just so i know you exist.

that's something i've been wondering about lately, as i've considered getting more regular and in depth (i'm really not sure that's the right way to say it...) in my blogging. i want to have a good blog. mostly this means, i think, that it needs to be interesting. i mean...that's why i read the blogs to which i subscribe regularly--they interest me. either because i know the person that writes it, or the author has a unique point of view that i appreciate a lot and says profound, thought provoking things.
maybe this is just a me thing again... that happens a lot, i've noticed.

so...what things have you read on this blog that are interesting? what kinds of things would you like to see here? what makes you cringe when you see it? i want this to be a cool thing that people enjoy reading, you know? (wow...i so felt like i was on the verge of "selling out" right there... that was weird. anywho...)

oh...and how does one go about increasing one's reader basis? and is there any way to track that? or to track if people have subscribed to your blog through atom, rss, google reader and the like?

this concludes my random question session for the day. thank you for your time and participation. :)

back to the grindstone

so...things are going a lot better now that everything has calmed down.

well...it's at least returned to background levels of stress and the like.

i mean, i've still got to finish registering for 2 credits and get tuition paid by tuesday of next week.

not to mention find housing. bahh! but at least i have housing now!

yeah...just normal stresses these days. mainly that means mother isn't melting down due to stress from upcoming events...the lack of upcoming events being good motivation for that.

but...aside from that, things are just swell and spiffy. i'm enjoying being married...and it's not near as awkward as one might have imagined it to be. joy... :) the fact that i married, like, the coolest girl ever certainly doesn't hurt that any.

anywho...seeing as how i sort of forgot the original purpose of this post (because i got sidetracked by dinner, registration and sleep...), i'll be done for now. tchao!

i'hn fehrink dha nubneth

so...things keep moving.
most noticeably time.

i feel like i'm teetering on the edge of something huge. i think we can all more or less figure out what that is...

i've reached a stage where i feel a silly sense of nothing. i'm just kind of hovering or floating in some sort of ethereal neutrality that surrounds me...if that makes any particular coherent sense.

there's so much that's been done...and yet so much that still has to happen. and i feel that there's so much that i've missed out on getting done that ought to have been done long ago, but still's not done... GAAAHHHHHH!

for instance, i realize that there are still some announcements that i haven't sent out...and i'm getting married in a week and 2-ish days. (good freak, batman...!)

in other news, i'm realizing that this condition is pretty much general in my life. it's not just a getting-married-in-a-month-ordeal issue. i kinda feel like i'm existing in this state of limbo in all things pertaining to my mortal existence. it's weird...mildly disconcerting...and overall just sort of makes me feel like my life is quickly getting nowhere.

that's about all i have on that for the moment. my mind is so not here right now...

internet scavenger

so...these last few days i've felt like a detective of sorts. i've been roving the wide world of the world wide web, hunting down addresses and names and numbers and information. i even found a lot of what i was looking for.

you know...it's amazing the things you can find on the internet. it really is. i love the internet. have you ever googled your own name to see what you can find about yourself? it's kinda fun. i found some interesting things about myself--including some stuff i didn't even know existed!

but, yeah...i feel lately as though i'm being absorbed by this informatic mass of digital puke that ensnares our society in a tangled web of silliness. it makes me tired.
don't get me wrong...i love the internet. i love finding all sorts of new and exciting things through web 2.0...but it makes me sad sometimes to see how much of their lives people waste away doing nothing "useful" and "productive" in the world...just wasting away in front of their screens.

and speaking of which, i've really got to get away from this desk. i've been here WAY too long...

AHHH...stressfulness!

yeah...so just for the record...getting married is fun...and stressful.

i've lately been working on getting addresses for announcements and the like... (the like? what the heck else do i need addresses for...honestly!)
i've decided first off that i know too many people.
secondly, my family knows too many people.
i guess this is all okay, being as that's how a newly married couple goes from having absolutely nothing to being able to furnish three professional kitchens, two full baths and having enough linens for a small bed and breakfast. oh, the ways of our society!

but...yeah. yesterday, i would venture to say that i spent roughly 70% of my waking hours on the computer gathering addresses from various sources. this was way too much time spent on the internet.
on the plus side, it made me feel special and loved, because i was getting either a wall post or message on average once every 15-20 minutes for the entire duration of time that i was on facebook! :)
i'm so special... (at least the doctors keep telling me as much...)

i should be getting the announcements in hard copy form today...like within the hour. that's mildly exciting.
then i have cutting, and printing and sticking and mailing to look forward to.
YES!

at any rate...this is just another fun thing in the whole line up of engagement bliss.
i imagine the whole situation would be a lot less pressing and whatnot if it weren't all culminating (is that even the right word?) in two weeks time.
(i was looking for something that indicates coming to a close...wrapping things up...finishing... i really need to start reading more...)

basically...eloping would be so much easier. then you could just throw a little shindig for everyone after the fact...and have all sorts of time and energy to plan it all out.
of course...a longer engagement would help for that too.

oh well...

i'm not complaining...

actually it probably sounds like i am. i promise i'm not. really. quite frankly, i'm enjoying the whole endeavor...it's just a lot all at once that i'm supposed to know everything about, but don't.

again...not complaining...honest.